I came to the point in my life where I knew that none of my ideas of what life was supposed to be, would work out. I tried most of the usual avenues such as money, jobs, sex, alcohol etc. etc.

I found myself in a job that I hated, knowing that no matter what I tried, nothing would work out.  There would be no better job. I also knew that no person or situation could solve my problem, ... my problem of being unhappy. I knew somewhere in my mind that there had to be a better way.

I finally reached the point in my job, which was all I had left, where I knew I would die just doing what I had always done. I resolved to drink that night. I had been in AA and sober for 12 years. I  remember the conversation I had in my mind that morning as I planned my own drinking suicide: "At least I can die happily drunk. If there is a God, and I doubt it, he would have helped me already."

That morning while loading my truck I fell about 6 feet to the ground and dislocated my hip. I was taken to the hospital where I had surgery and recuperated for a period of one year.

When I hit the ground following the fall, I had a contact with God that gave me immediate relief from all the pain I was in. That includes all the emotional, mental and physical pain. I knew through the Grace of God that everything would be ok. I didn't know the specifics on how that would be for me. I just knew. I had found relief from all my pain. All over sudden...

Since that has happened, my life has changed and is changing to living through the Grace of God, a day at a time. I have come to know that the only problem I could ever have is my own meaningless idea about something or someone. When I give my ideas to God I am relieved of the pain of having to hold onto them and I am happy, which is my natural condition.

Thank you God.

D.D. - United States