I was at rock bottom. A 'dark night of the soul' or whatever you want to call it. I was reading all my self-help books all at once. I even pulled out one that I had not gotten to read before  called "The Inner Game of Tennis". (Perhaps an unlikely choice in which to find something to keep one from jumping out the window, but I was desperate and would have read a cook book at that point if I thought it would help.) The basic premise of the book was - don't fill your head with instructions on how to hit a tennis shot and then play them all back while trying to hit the ball...it suggested that your body already KNOWS what to do, and it encourage you to just let your body hit the ball. It went on to say if you really want to do something, observe someone who has mastered that thing and let your "body" "absorb" it. Then just let it use it's inner knowledge to do it.

I thought "that's all  well and good but being the worlds greatest [semi-suicidal] tennis player wasn't going to solve my problem". I needed healing and to feel whole, free and joyous. I remember thinking: "If  my "body" is going to spend time with someone (to re-learn something it already knows), I want to meet and hang out with an enlightened master." At that moment a prayer of the heart for help went out from me. 

One week later, through the most unlikely set of circumstances I met the Master Teacher and my life changed so dramatically.

 I.G. United States