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April 7th, 2001 I was working the workbook of the course of miracles for some time and of course it was working. I felt the changes coming into my life and my awareness and was getting really excited about it. One evening I found myself looking up at the evening sky and decided to speed up some things. I asked God to please remove all my illusions so I would have them out of the way. Did I really know what I asked for? Wham...the next day my husband left me. This came to me as a total shock. Here I was thinking I was leading this happily married life, having a happy all set family, and living this comfortable life, without anything to worry. Indeed one big illusion shattered apart. Leaving me totally disorientated and powerless. And That was exactly what I needed most. Although I did not realize it at the time. I know now that was the best thing happening to me. Being ripped of all my so called securities I found my only real security is in God. I had to give my life over to Him realizing I could not handle it anymore. It started to dawn on me that forgiveness was the only way out of the misery I found myself and my children in. Guess what? The day I felt I had
forgiven my husband and myself and did not feel any anger to God anymore
about what He had presented me with.......my husband rang and he returned
within a few days. Ankie |
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