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January
10th, 2002
I am currently twenty-four. For most of my teenage life I had been exposed
to drugs and alcohol through friends and my older brother who was an
addict.
Many times my brother would come to the places I would be living in with
friends to stay and for help, because he felt a real connection with me. I
wanted to help him in anyway possible but it just felt as though it was
totally futile. I knew he would just be back on the streets using drugs
again and in trouble with the police.
It was four years ago in '98 when he became a father to twins a boy and a
girl, but because of the condition him and his girlfriend where in the
twins were given to a foster home.
Shortly after this I was informed my brother had broken up with his
girlfriend and lost access to his kids and I was informed by a guy that
knew him that he had overdosed and died. His last words to my Aunty were,
"Can you take care of the kids?"
Shortly after that moment I had collapsed in on myself in total
devastation and everything fell apart. I started becoming totally self
destructive with drugs and drinking and the relationship I was in also
fell apart. I found myself in a darkness I thought I would never recover
from.
In my devastation I phoned my mum, and she told me to come stay with her.
During this time I was having these visual dreams about my brother and a
voice informing me that he played this role for me so I didn't have to do
it anymore.
My Mum then introduced me to "A Course In Miracles" which brought me into
a total experience one day of myself as everything, in the eternal light
and love of God. My image of myself had disappeared into a beautiful
peaceful light. In that instant I saw that my brother wasn't that sick
and suffering image, but a beautiful radiant light one with me in heaven.
This is my miracle - Nothing dies and nothing is lost, being forever in my
mind which is one with God. My Aunty now has custody of my brothers kids
and I see the light and love of my brother every time I visit them.
I am eternally grateful to know that my brother is always with me in the
light and love of my soul. Thank you Father...
Luke Double
Australia
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The
Holy Christ Is
Born In Me Today
Raising
the Dead
Because
He Let The
Holy Spirit Guide Him
I
Had An Experience
Of Love
It's
Wonderful Just
To Be Myself